just secretly pissed as all. nuff said.
Friday, November 22, 2013
Tuesday, October 15, 2013
left out
sooooooooo it's not that I don't have friends. But everyday at school I'm always with the same group of people. I consider them as family. But recently I feel like they are avoiding me and it really really really hurts.
Among all of the things I don't like being left out is number one. yeah it's a small thing. But when I feel left out I feel that I'm losing friends, family. Specially recently, I don't even know what they talk about anymore. And it's painful.
Yeah, I leave them sometimes to see my "special friend". But after seeing him I want to be welcomed back like I was never gone. And now I think that they hate me or something. Even if they say they don't. I get paranoid and think that they do. And they're making plans on going out without telling me. AND IT'S EXTREMELY PAINFUL THINKING THAT THE PEOPLE THAT YOU CONSIDER AS FAMILY IS LEAVING YOU OUT OF THINGS.
I Hope that they don't hate me. But we can't always get what we want. so yeah. I hope this works out.
Tuesday, April 9, 2013
#17
#185 Write names of ten things that you like to eat.
I LOVE FOOD. It's as simple as that. I don't care that I'm fat or whatever. Seriously How can people not love eating. The sensation of eating can't be compared to anything else! So here's a list of things that I love to eat.
1. Cake - Especially moist chocolate cake. Dry cakes feel like like sand when you eat them.
2. Brownies - Fudgy, chewy and with chocolate ships or almonds are really the perfect combination.
3. Pizza - Either juicy bacon and cheese or all meat.
4. Cookies - From chocolate chip , Oreos , or my aunt's home made cookies.
5. Burgers - Pure beef with ketchup. On bread or on rice, it's like heaven in your mouth.
6. Potato chips - Plain salted only. I don't enjoy it as much if it has a weird seasoning.
7. Dim sum - Shrimp dumplings dipped in soy sauce or pork siomai with chili. It's just amazing.
8. Pasta - Any pasta with any sauce can go well together.
9. Sushi - rice with raw fish wrapped in seaweed, dipped in kikkoman and wasabi. IS JUST SO DELICIOUS.
10. Fried chicken - Amazing comfort food! Moist, juicy chicken in a blend of spices deep fried to golden perfection!
Now, I'm hungry and I'll probably eat after this. But these are just the food that I can name on the top of my head. I'm not picky with food, so anything can make me happy!
I LOVE FOOD. It's as simple as that. I don't care that I'm fat or whatever. Seriously How can people not love eating. The sensation of eating can't be compared to anything else! So here's a list of things that I love to eat.
1. Cake - Especially moist chocolate cake. Dry cakes feel like like sand when you eat them.
2. Brownies - Fudgy, chewy and with chocolate ships or almonds are really the perfect combination.
3. Pizza - Either juicy bacon and cheese or all meat.
4. Cookies - From chocolate chip , Oreos , or my aunt's home made cookies.
5. Burgers - Pure beef with ketchup. On bread or on rice, it's like heaven in your mouth.
6. Potato chips - Plain salted only. I don't enjoy it as much if it has a weird seasoning.
7. Dim sum - Shrimp dumplings dipped in soy sauce or pork siomai with chili. It's just amazing.
8. Pasta - Any pasta with any sauce can go well together.
9. Sushi - rice with raw fish wrapped in seaweed, dipped in kikkoman and wasabi. IS JUST SO DELICIOUS.
10. Fried chicken - Amazing comfort food! Moist, juicy chicken in a blend of spices deep fried to golden perfection!
Now, I'm hungry and I'll probably eat after this. But these are just the food that I can name on the top of my head. I'm not picky with food, so anything can make me happy!
#16
114. Write about a time you performed in front of an audience.
I enjoy acting. Being able to be a different person on stage makes me happy. During my first term in college I was in a play entitled "7" bu Venece Dingal.
I was a corrupt business woman named Ingrid Adolfo. My character ruined a lot of lives because of my corruption and I ended up going to hell for it. It's really fun being that character and not at the same time. Since it hard to play a business woman, they are boring. Just stand around and count money.
I wasn't able to show my full potential, since my character is really boring. But luckily the audience was supportive enough. The feeling of being watched by a group of people that don't know the real you is amazing. They only know you as your character. I just love the mystery.
Hopefully I can be in the next play and show my full potential. And the world would know me as 'that crazy girl' or the 'slutty girl' rather than just Michelle.
I enjoy acting. Being able to be a different person on stage makes me happy. During my first term in college I was in a play entitled "7" bu Venece Dingal.
I was a corrupt business woman named Ingrid Adolfo. My character ruined a lot of lives because of my corruption and I ended up going to hell for it. It's really fun being that character and not at the same time. Since it hard to play a business woman, they are boring. Just stand around and count money.
I wasn't able to show my full potential, since my character is really boring. But luckily the audience was supportive enough. The feeling of being watched by a group of people that don't know the real you is amazing. They only know you as your character. I just love the mystery.
Hopefully I can be in the next play and show my full potential. And the world would know me as 'that crazy girl' or the 'slutty girl' rather than just Michelle.
#15
116. Write about a disappointment
A couple of a weeks ago, it was SOMA week. And we had to make a float for one subject. Not that I'm bragging, but I placed my blood sweat and tears onto out float. And all of my efforts was just wasted.
We are 14 in our group. 6 of them were contestants in the SOMA pageant. And 7 of them were in the production team, including me. During the first few weeks we had o progress whatsoever. The base keeps on breaking, there were only ideas and no work it was a total mess. We only started 1 week before the parade. 1 WEEK. And all of the other members were either in a photo shoot or making the stage for the pageant.
I know that if I went with them we wouldn't even have a float for the parade. Plus there had to be a presentation. So more stress for me. Monday was our first day, we had to start on the alien of our float. WE DIDN'T EVEN HAVE ANY MATERIALS. So I had to look for scrap wood in basement. And luckily I found a long piece of plastic that was around 7ft high. On that day we were able to finish the skeleton of the alien. But I wasn't satisfied my groupmates wanted to go home. But I didn't want to. I took a yard of chicken wire and started to mold the alien. I got a butt load of cuts from even cutting the wire. Honestly, if I hadn't started, we wouldn't have able to finish it on time.
Another thing was, my groupmates worked really slow. On the days that they helped, it took LONGER to even finish a certain component. I could have finished it in 1 hour and it takes them 3! and 3-4 people would be helping them. REALLY? It would take a person 3 hours to paper mache a triangle. Most of the week it would be just the 2 of us, me and paolo. Working on the float and we made more progress than any of them.
But at least we were able to finish our float on time.
IT DOES NOT STOP THERE. The biggest pain on my chest is that we didn't win. Compared to the other sections, our float was amazing. Really most of them were crap.
All of my blood, sweat and tear went on to that float. And the janitors and guards just broke them like it was nothing. I literally cried more than 10 times that week. I have never felt such pain and disappointment.
A couple of a weeks ago, it was SOMA week. And we had to make a float for one subject. Not that I'm bragging, but I placed my blood sweat and tears onto out float. And all of my efforts was just wasted.
We are 14 in our group. 6 of them were contestants in the SOMA pageant. And 7 of them were in the production team, including me. During the first few weeks we had o progress whatsoever. The base keeps on breaking, there were only ideas and no work it was a total mess. We only started 1 week before the parade. 1 WEEK. And all of the other members were either in a photo shoot or making the stage for the pageant.
I know that if I went with them we wouldn't even have a float for the parade. Plus there had to be a presentation. So more stress for me. Monday was our first day, we had to start on the alien of our float. WE DIDN'T EVEN HAVE ANY MATERIALS. So I had to look for scrap wood in basement. And luckily I found a long piece of plastic that was around 7ft high. On that day we were able to finish the skeleton of the alien. But I wasn't satisfied my groupmates wanted to go home. But I didn't want to. I took a yard of chicken wire and started to mold the alien. I got a butt load of cuts from even cutting the wire. Honestly, if I hadn't started, we wouldn't have able to finish it on time.
Another thing was, my groupmates worked really slow. On the days that they helped, it took LONGER to even finish a certain component. I could have finished it in 1 hour and it takes them 3! and 3-4 people would be helping them. REALLY? It would take a person 3 hours to paper mache a triangle. Most of the week it would be just the 2 of us, me and paolo. Working on the float and we made more progress than any of them.
But at least we were able to finish our float on time.
IT DOES NOT STOP THERE. The biggest pain on my chest is that we didn't win. Compared to the other sections, our float was amazing. Really most of them were crap.
All of my blood, sweat and tear went on to that float. And the janitors and guards just broke them like it was nothing. I literally cried more than 10 times that week. I have never felt such pain and disappointment.
#14
29. How I can earn money
I'm too young for a job. Some working areas need a college degree. And I really want a DSLR but my parents wont buy me one.
Just awesome. I know people say that having a job isn't fun. But I really need money. So, with the help of my awesome father. He gives me hosting gigs. It's just minor shows like childrens' parties. It's better than nothing.
Another job that I do is being santa's helper. Which is basically, I carry a bag of candy and do crowd control. Sadly it's only a seasonal thing so I can only do it for like 2 weeks.
And it is impossible to sell my artwork. Since not everybody likes them. So I try to sell bracelets and stationary when I can.
It's annoying that I cant work a proper paying job. Even for the summer. And I really don't want to work at a fast food chain. So this is only thing that I can do. And hopefully I earn enough to get a DSLR.
I'm too young for a job. Some working areas need a college degree. And I really want a DSLR but my parents wont buy me one.
Just awesome. I know people say that having a job isn't fun. But I really need money. So, with the help of my awesome father. He gives me hosting gigs. It's just minor shows like childrens' parties. It's better than nothing.
Another job that I do is being santa's helper. Which is basically, I carry a bag of candy and do crowd control. Sadly it's only a seasonal thing so I can only do it for like 2 weeks.
And it is impossible to sell my artwork. Since not everybody likes them. So I try to sell bracelets and stationary when I can.
It's annoying that I cant work a proper paying job. Even for the summer. And I really don't want to work at a fast food chain. So this is only thing that I can do. And hopefully I earn enough to get a DSLR.
#13
44. My plans for summer
In 2 weeks it'll finally be our summer break. FINALLY. We've been waiting for sooo long. Especially this has been the most stressful term ever. Here's what we've done so far :
1. Business letters
2. Float
3. Float presentation
4.Paintings
5. Research Paper
6. SOMA Week
7. SOMA pageant production team
8. Fliers
9. blogs
10. Speeches
Seriously, who would not want a break from all of that. Plus, we still have a speech choir, and I still have my ignite speech. Also we still have to make brochures and there are still a bunch of quizzes.
So, I really cant wait for summer!
Before, when I was in high school. My summer days would be watching anime dvd's, since we didn't have any cable back then. And eat. One time I even went to an art workshop. Which was awesome.
So for the first week. I'll be getting my sleep. I have experienced 2-3 days of little to no sleep and I just want to get them back. I also want to practice my painting skills, I'd like to experiment with water colors and try to get better with oil paint. And maybe draw, since I was never good at it.
Then for the next few weeks I want to send some time with my little brother. Ever since I got in college I haven't been able to spend time with him that much. Before we used to cook meals together and watch family guy at night. Those days were the best. I really love my lil bro.
More or less i really just want to rest. I don't like going to different places, since the travel sucks. I get motion sickness. And I don't want to go swimming, because I don't want to get dark. I hate tan lines. It takes forever to get the original skin color back.
But for now I'll finish my requirements. So I can get this stress off my back. SUMMER 2013 here I come!
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