Among all of the things I don't like being left out is number one. yeah it's a small thing. But when I feel left out I feel that I'm losing friends, family. Specially recently, I don't even know what they talk about anymore. And it's painful.
Yeah, I leave them sometimes to see my "special friend". But after seeing him I want to be welcomed back like I was never gone. And now I think that they hate me or something. Even if they say they don't. I get paranoid and think that they do. And they're making plans on going out without telling me. AND IT'S EXTREMELY PAINFUL THINKING THAT THE PEOPLE THAT YOU CONSIDER AS FAMILY IS LEAVING YOU OUT OF THINGS.
I Hope that they don't hate me. But we can't always get what we want. so yeah. I hope this works out.
